Wednesday, 16 May 2012

Men's Centre


Maybe if we had an equal past in which everyone had equal respect, equal opportunity, equal safety, equal responsibilities, equal space in education, then everyone would have equal right to centre with their picture on it. But our universities have not ever been, nor are they currently, equal between the genders. I have personally dealt with sexism with professors, old men, who have refused to call on me in class, yet spoke to all the men in my class. I have felt unsafe walking home from school late, have felt outrage at pretty much every class at some point or another, when professors make comments about how their woman students dress, act, their makeup, their looks, which have absolutely nothing to do with political philosophy. I have been a minority in every political science class as a feminist, as a woman who does not like it when my male counterparts speak over me with louder voices and worse ideas. I have been a minority as a woman period. I am a minority because I am a woman in university.

Men of certain cultural groups, or of certain religious affiliation, or with different bodies or minds are members of minorities, and for that many universities have measures of accommodation for them, albeit limited. Men as a whole are not a minority, nor are they in need of special measures to ensure their success. If they are not doing well en masse in university it is because they are not able or willing to compete with the newly arrived women in their fields. If they feel like minorities in university it is only because they are used to functioning in a historically exclusionary system, which blatantly favours them over women. Point blank. Men as a whole are not a minority, are not in need of special support. Statistics tell us not that men need support in university because women are overtaking them, but that men are simply not used to working as hard as women. Statistically speaking. And in a system where it is viewed as impossible and unnecessary to create a sexual assault centre that would service largely women who are abused while in university, due to lack of funds and will, it is absolutely unbelievable that a men’s centre is deemed worthy of university finances and energy. Every class I’ve been to, every time I step into my building at school I am hit in the face with the realization that universities are men’s centres. Universities are men’s centres. History classes are men’s centres. Politics classes are men’s centres. Literature classes, unless entitled women in literature, or world literature, are men’s centres. My professors’ offices, surrounded by books written by men about men’s things, or about women from the male author’s mind, are men’s centres.

Look back. Look back less than a generation ago when women were hardly in university. Are your glasses strong enough? Mine are and I see women struggling to get heard in a class. I see women being treated as cute by their all male professors. I see women being rejected because they’re newly married and it’s assumed that they’ll pop out babies soon so what’s the point of letting her into university? I see women who are disabled and whose families discourage from going to school, I’ll get you a job at the post office honey. Look back and then look around you. There are women in university. There are a lot of us. We are catching up in enrollment, and are getting good grades and grants and we are happy about this. But we have to struggle every day in school and this is because we have a sexist history. A history in which you would have gone to school and I wouldn’t have because of what is happening between my legs. Full stop. Look around and see women wearing pants, something for which my mother was sent home from high school, in the 60s, running to class, taking notes, writing papers and working hard. Look around at our diverse classrooms full of diverse people and swallow your self-entitlement. Swallow your history-denying insecurity. Swallow your coffee as you sit in class, savour it, and stop interrupting me when I speak.

Tuesday, 24 April 2012

In my Ears


I awoke with the sound of voices in my ears. Shakers in my ears. The sound of flapping fabric, banners billowing, harnessing the power of gusting winds.

I awoke with three hundred thousand bodies, six hundred thousand feet sending shocks through the concrete, moist grass muddy and already regenerating, stroller wheels marking a peaceful path. I awoke surrounded by chests heaving, lungs expanding, contracting with shared calls, rhythmic expressions rising up, up.

Masses of bodies forming shapes, symbols of peace and frustration, stating changes as they happen.

I awoke on the streets of Montreal; skin raised like the high note of a Mahalia Jackson run, tears in her eyes, mouth wider as it can, vocal chords reaching all the way to the clear blue sky, all the way to the pacific, piercing through tall stocks of wheat, blasting through mountains; dynamite to the ancient rock, through cities, all glass and invincible.

I heard voices as I woke up and I hear them still!

Monday, 16 April 2012

Hummingbird



Her nose brushed mine
Butterfly kisses.
Her hair was pink,
Turned into a hummingbird.
We stood by the water you were there too.
We were sitting on steps. Piano was playing.
Sparkling.
She was so beautiful.
Tattoo on her shoulder danced in the sunlight.
If I had stayed we would have gotten on a boat.
Hair dances, I think she did too.
Didn’t say a word. Words aren’t everything,
I say.
It was a moment short and calm, porcelain and strong.
Sparkling.

Friday, 16 March 2012

I stick my head out the window

Our patriarchy is just more hidden
I stick my head out the window; broad snowflakes dust my face.
Our patriarchy is just more hidden.
“We don’t do that here.”
Our patriarchy is just more hidden.
The 600 women killed by Canadian-born white bread.
The stories not covered,
Their bodies covered by dirt, not even a diligent attempt to hide.
And what sticks in our minds?
          Pig farmer.
And what stays in our minds?
          Honour killing.
And what is overlooked?
          Women are being
                   Killed
                   By men.
Expressionless face mouths the damaging, slow-motion words:
“run of the mill domestic violence.”
I stick my head out the window.
If we name the honour killing
We should name the native-killing;
The wheelchair razing;
The nameless-so-you-can’t-be-identified cowardly killings. The
Easy targets.
By any other name.
Our patriarchy is more hidden.
‘Our’ implicates me.
Compelling
Propelling myself to a place with a microphone in front of my face.
Break it down.
Better, build something up around it. We are creators. Engulf it, so it becomes a speck on an old grey stone in a wall – cemented, no longer free to roll, gaining force, picking up dirt, pebbles, an avalanche by the time
it hits.
Build, use your arms, your strength to over power it.
Stare at it and say I know you’re hiding, I know you’re there, and this game
Is over.
I stick my head out the window. Breath.
Is it honour that drives women to be plastered on billboards, for all us to see?
Honour, that keeps us quiet when that sexist joke is told – don’t embarrass yourself it’s just a joke.
Honour that prevents us from parting our lips and making sounds, opening up to the world, that knowledge that we have?
Honour, or is it shame?
By any other name.

Friday, 24 February 2012

Recognize your worth.
Hold it, like water, cupped, in hands upturned.
  Be careful. It slips through.

Monday, 6 February 2012

Epitaph for Apathy:

Here she lies, beloved wife of Lethargy, 
loving mother of two lazy children. 
"Art and politics, are best experienced from far away. 
Fire is hottest close up."

Sunday, 5 February 2012

Time Passes

Time passes
That’s what it does
Time passes like an impatient driver passing in the left lane.
Revs the engine, glares out the passenger side window
Time passes.

Precipitation falls.
That’s what it does
It falls, racing to the ground, to finally rest, to hit the pavement, settling, only to be summoned again, not ready to ascend but up it goes. Time waits for no droplet.

Future happens.
Future happens when you’re busy sitting on a chair, cushions surrounding, fingers flailing, clicking, clicking.
Future happens when, inspired, poems distract you from the task at hand.
The task at hand distracts you from the future, (the present) and so it goes.
Time passes.